For my next baby, I want to nurse him/her immediately after he/she arrive the world. Is such a regret that I didn't have chance to do it for my baby Darren, I felt sorry to him. Now I know that I have my right to tell the midwife or nurse that I want to hold my baby and start the bonding process with the baby even he/she is still fill with the blood. I seriously don't mind about the fishy smell and the red blood.
For my next baby, I want to decide everything by own. I want to speak it, I want to raise out my opinion.. I hate that I delivered Baby Baby without knowingly what exactly to do and hate that I have not decided by myself.
For my next baby, I will love you by my heart and soul. and I love you to the moon and back too, Darren. :)
Love, mama.
