Lesson

Life is all about learning even I am a mother now. 
I want to book down this mistakes I made, so I won't forget and I wouldn't allow myself to repeat the same mistake. 


When this little boy can roll over his body, I should celebrate this milestone and meantime, I should be more aware and pay more concentration to him. I've told myself thousand times. However, human is taking things for granted, until it broke your heart, only you will truly learn from it.


Mistake 1#  I leave him alone on the bed and I off to bath time. But, my mistake of covering him with a big fabric that will bundle him somehow. He rolled and he pulled the fabric and it covered his head. My heart almost broken when I saw him covered by the fabric and it might suffocate him, of cos he cried. 


Lesson 1# Never cover a baby with big blanket (expert even suggested not to cover with any blanket). However, our home practice is .... cover the baby with something to keep the baby warm. I've doubt and I still stick to this practice! Make sure is not BIG and not leaving the baby alone when he is awake.


Mistake 2# I leave him alone again on the couch and walked away to get something. He fell off from the couch onto the floor. It hurts me. I burst out . Oh my poor little boy, I know it is painful and it frightened you. Mummy is more painful than you. I blamed myself for this. This is a mistake I should not make at all! 


Lesson 2# Never ever leave a baby alone at a high place especially when he can turn. Put him on the mattress on floor when I need to walk away a while.


Motherhood is a life changing point for me, at the same time, is a learning path for me as well.

"While we try to teach our children about life, Our children teach us what life is all about."

Mood

Firstly, would like to wish loku lim happy 23rd birthday....Thanks for the birthday party tat he organised on last saturday. The party reminded me alot of old times memories that we used to build together.

Time really flies. I am gettin older and wiser now. But at some point, stil feel nothin and emptiness in my life. And sometimes i tried to be oblivious of my former failure too....

"The easiest way for your children to learn about money is for you not to have any. " - Katherine Whitehorn.

My mum doesnt really have any money with her since she gave birth to me...until now, she stil struggling for more monies and alw complaint for not havin enuf money. Mayb this is her main purpose, main intention.... she want me to learn about the value of money.And yeah, i learned it and realised that money was always not enuf to have all the time.

I feel bad and regretted at this moment, after I pissed off and screwed everythin out myself yesterday. I hav no idea, why woman like to screw the thing out by herself?? Nevertheless, I am doubted on myself too. 

The dry, hot and humid weather yesterday worsen the situation.Reheating my anger slowly and slowly..then everythin came upon seem like goin against me, doesnt go according my way, not smooth all the way, alot of problems and obstracles... jus like when i am heading to collect my car after the class, suddenly there are bird shits jus fell in front of me, luckily...it didnt hit on me. Gosh.... OMG and Thanks GOD!!!!!!!!!!

I jus want to be able to relax on comfy sofa, read a good book, listen to some calmin music and contemplate my navel, whener I choose. But life alw turn out to be the opposite way.