Surprise and worrisome

Life is full of surprises ... with a little baby. He always surprised me no matter how.. Thanks Darren for bringing up my days and my boundless love I have with you is growing each single second...

What he surprised me? ... His roll-over skill is improving! Can't wait to see him roll over here and there, let'me catcha you, baby!!!

When I arrived at home after a pretty long and bored working day, I saw Darren was sleeping at side way and his leg was pushing strongly, but ... he still can't push him towards.. I know he is trying hard. Mama never push you on this, is up to the child to do and child has their own freedom as well. Thanks to Maria Montessori. 

Surprise, surprise, surprise... You won't know when your baby can surprise you just as simple as that! :)

Besides surprises that given by him, he made me worried as well and I blamed myself for not being calm when I need to fix the thing right. Still got such a long way to master my mama role. Let's grow and learn together.... 

Here came in another problem that puzzled me, for me, Darren is the first priority among my to-do-list now, nothing is more important than your child..

Should I quit my current job to become a stay-at-home mum, knowing that bonding with Darren will become stronger and stronger? or spending less time with him without knowing him well in return of pay cheque every month?

I really don't know what's the best fit me at this moment. 

Darren's 3 months development checklist

A brief note

A baby boy who came into this wonderful world on 4th of August 2011, at 4.35p.m in Phnom Penh, Cambodia. Mummy welcome you, my little sweetheart.

I can't remember every single moment that back to 3 months ago, my apologize that I did not record it down and I am regret at this point. I can only briefly describe the 3 months period in here..

NOTHING has been that painful in my life during the day, is killing me every single moment during the contraction period.. and at some point, I did not wish to get pregnant again. Of cos, now I changed my mind. :) Because it is worth for it when you see he is growing each day. 

WORST is.. confinement! Is the worst part for me, being through from pregnancy, labor, delivery, confinement. Can I just ignore those super ridiculous mama tales don't?? 

Getting use to this new life, especially the first month. It was challenging yet testing on my patience level. My life has been totally changed from up to down, down back to up. How many sleepless nights I've been struggled off? How much tear I've been dropped? Is just a process that I have to go tru it and I made it, when I look back from now. Thanks God!

Three months stayed up at home with this little friend. Getting to know each other each day, making me crazy sometimes, cheer up my days, tiredness and complaints... a lot to count.. Any yet, I am thankful I have him with me, I am thankful I have him in my arm, I am thankful I cried for him, I am thankful I could have love a man with all my heart and soul, I am thankful I became more mature for him, I am thankful I learned to appreciate people around me, and I am thankful that I can love.

Now, Darren is 3 months old week 2, a boy who coos, goos and gurgles a lot, like he is telling me how he feels, what's inside his mind.. It certainly fun to communicate with him, wondering what he's trying to tell me? Growing bigger and stronger each day, I remembered I was freak out and worried when his crying sounds was louder than usual when he is reaching full moon, and I realised he is a big boy, no longer a newborn baby who just sleep all day long. I miss my newborn baby so much, I should have done more cuddles and bonding with him on his first day, I didn't. :(

I have lots to share in my mind, but is hard for me to write it down every single moment, so... start from the next blog, will be his 3 months old week 2 life!

Love ya.

A new blog

Well, such a long time I've out of this blog, guess what.. I am pretty busy with my little one who just joined me in Aug 04, 2011. What made me back in action again? I just want to record down a moment I spent with him, probably not everyday but I will try my best to update it here. :D

Thanks for everyone who loves us and care about us, we are fine here and we are having fun times being together and getting to know each other.

Life is become more meaningful after his arrival and I would like to savor the moment.